This is the year for change! I am not sure why I chose 2011, when there have been so many other years to pick. Maybe it is the fact that I turn 30 this year. Maybe it is because I am tired of being tired. Whatever the reason, I chose this year to be THE year.
First I went back to school. Signing up for college classes was an experience all on it's own. One I am SUPER proud of!
Then I decided to join a weight loss challenge. This challenge was to be my motivator, my challenger, and my focus. The prize? A healthier me.....and a possibility to earn some money. Let's be honest...money is a great incentive. Very few people do something for nothing. Unfortunately, a healthier body and lifestyle is not a tangible item, money is. So I decided to go for it.
The first 4 weeks into my challenge was awesome! I lost a total of 26 pounds, and had no issues counting calories and making it to the gym. I was so proud of myself.
But then life took over as it always seems to. School and homework seemed to take up more time. Spending quality time with my children and hubby was becoming fewer and far between....and then one day I picked up a church magazine and read an article about "What Matters Most".
What does matter most? Ultimately I would like to be around a while, so that I can watch my children grow, but when getting there takes up so much of your time.....which do you choose? I could not let school go and sleep is a must, so what could I give up to spend more time with my family?
So I made the decision that I have made so many other times. I stopped heading to the gym as much and started justifying my actions on my family.
Was being healthy really all that important?
I know it is.....but what else can I sacrifice to get to my goal? Why should I HAVE to sacrifice anything? WHY can't it all be easy?? (OK, so now I know I am getting carried away)...LOL.....
So I slowly stopped. Unfortunately my obsession with my scale did not stop. I step on that scale every morning and every night, waiting and watching for those 26 pounds to reappear.
Thus far they have not, but the pounds are also not coming OFF anymore, either.
So now what? Well, my aunt called me in Feb and told me that the show "The Biggest Loser" was having a casting call in Salt Lake City, Utah. So we decided to go. Really what could it hurt? If I was noticed, I could be on the show, if I was not noticed.....well I was determined to jump back up and find the time to balance my schedule. Either way, I am sure to be a "biggest loser"
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